I turned 28 this past weekend. It was a weekend filled with skydives (10 of them!), friends, food, beer, fireworks, cake, and cupcakes. I have awesome friends. They knew I'd be upset without Corey there and they did everything they could to make me still feel loved.
Sometimes I wonder if I'm where I'm supposed to be. So many of my friends are married or engaged right now. My mom had a one year old (me!) when she was 28. I'm incredibly happy, and I think that happiness is a true measure of success, so by that token, I'm in a good place. But some people don't understand the way my life's unfolded recently. Skydiving really did change everything. For the most part its been for the better (Corey). But what if those good things come at the risk of losing the other things that I've always wanted? I've always wanted to get married. Start a family. Corey doesn't want that. We talk about spending the rest of our lives together and I know I always want him there, but he doesn't want the wedding part of it. Is that ok with me? Can I give that up if it means being with someone I love? I think so. That's where I'm headed right now. Why give up someone, something that you have and that is great for something that you don't know? For something that you've always thought you've wanted, but never experienced? How do you know what the answer is? I don't think you do. I don't think you ever can. So I take it day by day and see how it plays out. I'm happy now, why change that?
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
28
I turned 28 this past weekend. It was a weekend filled with skydives (10 of them!), friends, food, beer, fireworks, cake, and cupcakes. I have awesome friends. They knew I'd be upset without Corey there and they did everything they could to make me still feel loved.
Sometimes I wonder if I'm where I'm supposed to be. So many of my friends are married or engaged right now. My mom had a one year old (me!) when she was 28. I'm incredibly happy, and I think that happiness is a true measure of success, so by that token, I'm in a good place. But some people don't understand the way my life's unfolded recently. Skydiving really did change everything. For the most part its been for the better (Corey). But what if those good things come at the risk of losing the other things that I've always wanted? I've always wanted to get married. Start a family. Corey doesn't want that. We talk about spending the rest of our lives together and I know I always want him there, but he doesn't want the wedding part of it. Is that ok with me? Can I give that up if it means being with someone I love? I think so. That's where I'm headed right now. Why give up someone, something that you have and that is great for something that you don't know? For something that you've always thought you've wanted, but never experienced? How do you know what the answer is? I don't think you do. I don't think you ever can. So I take it day by day and see how it plays out. I'm happy now, why change that?
Sometimes I wonder if I'm where I'm supposed to be. So many of my friends are married or engaged right now. My mom had a one year old (me!) when she was 28. I'm incredibly happy, and I think that happiness is a true measure of success, so by that token, I'm in a good place. But some people don't understand the way my life's unfolded recently. Skydiving really did change everything. For the most part its been for the better (Corey). But what if those good things come at the risk of losing the other things that I've always wanted? I've always wanted to get married. Start a family. Corey doesn't want that. We talk about spending the rest of our lives together and I know I always want him there, but he doesn't want the wedding part of it. Is that ok with me? Can I give that up if it means being with someone I love? I think so. That's where I'm headed right now. Why give up someone, something that you have and that is great for something that you don't know? For something that you've always thought you've wanted, but never experienced? How do you know what the answer is? I don't think you do. I don't think you ever can. So I take it day by day and see how it plays out. I'm happy now, why change that?
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